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Broken

10/6/2015

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      'It’ll end in tears'

Monday 16th February

As I lay in the snow, I could hear those words from an imaginary conscience, echoing loudly. I sat up, looked down and hoped the reason I couldn’t feel my foot was just due to the cold.

As I tried to wiggle the foot, some feeling started to return. A wave of embarrassment kicked in, surely
I cannae hae of broken my ankle sledging, I'm supposed tae be going skiing tomorrow, how the hell am I going to get down off the mountain …

In an effort to appear normal, I struggled to my feet. I applied weight, and whilst it was sore and rather unstable, it held and I was able to walk off the trail back down to the car.


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My pal Liza poked the area and we were happy it wasn’t broken… maybe.
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A rest day followed; which was then followed by a day on the downhill skis (boots cranked tight to protect the ankle).

Then another day on the skinny x country skis (painkillers by the dozen) before a morning “Fat Biking” on the trails above Canmore.  Technical single track… nae bother, but an easy approach trail with an inch of powder snow over blue ice, combined with a brake application, and gravity took over again.

Reflex kicked in, foot down, ankle collapsed (with a sharp pain), my shoulder took side impact (tearing the ligaments in the acromioclavicular joint) and I was in the snow once again… and aye, very close to tears
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The flight home wasn’t good and walking around Heathrow waiting for the flight back to Glasgow was painful beyond words. The next day was a very special gig by Dan Reed at a pal’s house and there was no way was I missing it. Only a little sleep (thanks to the shoulder injury) but I made the gig, and it was worth it.
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Dan Reed in the Middle and my daughter on the right
Eventually, I accepted at visit to the hospital was required and an x-ray confirmed everything I didn’t want to hear and more. Yes, the shoulder ligaments were damaged, but the radiographer told me I was to wait for a porter and wheelchair – my ankle was broken.

In the few minutes it took him to arrive, a years’ worth of adventures already planned out disappeared, before a feeling of hope brought them back into 3D view, the nurse showed me the x-rays – a stable Weber “B” fracture with two cracks showing in my fibula.

There was a brief debate with the registrar about surgery, and thankfully the nurse fought my case not to have the injury plated and pinned. A backslab cast was applied and I was sent on my way home with crutches and painkillers.

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My daughter and her Mum kindly picked me up and I was to rely on their assistance heavily over the next 9 weeks.

With no weight bearing permitted, even the simplest task took forever. I considered a trip to the toilet warranted medium term planning. I adapted a plastic kit box to enable food and drink to be transferred between the kitchen and living room, where Sons of Anarchy binge viewing took place.


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As someone who had always been active and someone who pretty much relied on no one (I really only accepted this character flaw during the weeks following the break), I took it hard …some days very hard indeed.

I'm not proud of it, but I soon found that mixing whisky and Dihydrocodeine gave good relief from the mental pain long after the physical pain had subsided – a wee habit I quickly got under control when I ran out of Dihydrocodeine, thankfully.

As the process of recovery progressed first with a resin cast, then with the application of a boot which allowed air to get around the ankle, hope slowly returned.


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The first of two key turning points occurred when I had my first physiotherapist appointment. We discussed what I hoped to get out of the sessions, and we very quickly identified that my definition of normal went somewhat beyond simply existing and I considered a return to being able to run in the mountains as the ideal.

Turns out the physiotherapist was as much up for a challenge as I was and soon I was given a set of exercises to build range of motion, stability before moving onto the commencement of rebuilding strength.


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We baselined against my “good” leg and each session looked for progress, no matter how small. Maybe one of the hardest things to deal with was acceptance on timeframes, but a realignment of what was possible with micro targets helped that along as well.

Some days that target was a simple walk round the block. The adventure calendar was cleared of previous plans and new ones that were achievable were added. Instead of racing, I turned to working at races, with marshalling on the open hill being the role of choice.



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Marshalling on the summit of Ben Lomond - first day back at altitude.
In parallel, the impact of the break also contributed to the accelerated breakup of the relationship I was in. Some will say I actively looked for problems, but if I did, I didn’t need to look too hard to find them. I only mention this to illustrate that maybe folk's true character (especially my own) comes through when things are out of control.

Realising the recovery was going to be in months rather than weeks, I put in a couple of key dates with the main one being on the start line of the Ben Nevis Hill Race which is held on the first weekend of September each year, 2015 being my 10th consecutive run. The other was being able to spectate and support pals running The Highland Fling ultra, which was a race I should have been doing.


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Ben Nevis this year (2015) accomplished
PictureRunning as a support runner .... I was supposed to being doing 10 miles, ended up 33 miles
Friday 24th April

On the eve of The Fling, a brief moment of madness filled my head as I thought about starting the 53 mile run and seeing how far I could get, but was calmed when I hobbled up the stairs back into the flat.

Early the next morning, I did head up to Balmaha to see the race come through, and a last minute decision saw me climb slowly to the high point on Conic Hill where I would have the opportunity to see the runners prior to the descent into the control point. 

The usual suspects were running, and I met them with encouragement and abuse in equal measure – it felt good to be back on the hill (even if fairly stationary).

The highlight of the day was meeting a runner called Katie (who I’d known only through social media), when she jumped off the trail, tugging my beard before heading into the distance.


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Katie at the Highland Fling
A wee unexpected surge of emotion appeared from nowhere – various reasons for this but overall, I missed my life, but this was contrasted with being hopeful for whatever lay ahead. Joe Strummer once noted “The Future is Unwritten” and whilst I agree with almost everything he ever wrote.

I had an idea of where my own future was heading. I didn’t realise at the time, but sitting on Conic Hill considering the situation, was the second turning point. The decision not to return home, and to point the van north to see the race through the last few miles above Crainlarich, set a course that was to prove key to sitting writing this today.

Despite having driven the A82 many, many times, this felt different and it simply wasn’t sustainable to stay still any longer.

I’ll save the reader a blow by blow account of the months that followed – partly because it probably isn’t all that interesting to you, and partly due to time passing almost too quickly.

Suffice to say; the rollercoaster started to level out until I was able to hit the second big target of 2015, the Ben Nevis Hill Race. In writing this, I’ve thought back to what actually made a difference – no doubt support from good people played a part, but the biggest thing that promoted recovery was to attach meaning to it.

Some days it was being able to attend a gig (made it to see Tim Barry, Sam Russo, Cory Branan, Chuck Ragan and Nick Cave), other days it was being able to walk round to see my daughter without assistance, then it was being able to run for 10 minutes, the list could go on…


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Highlight!
My experience was minor (but significant to me) and every time I feel a down coming on, I remember that many more have recovered from far worse, but I believe the process of recovery from whatever is similar. This is no more illustrated than in the 1946 book by Viktor Frankl, “Mans Search for Meaning” – that shares Mr Frankl’s experiences whilst in the Auschwitz Concentration camp.


Oh… and before I forget, you’ll remember Katie from the Highland Fling and Conic Hill? Well, it turns out we get on pretty damn well and been Team Beardy & Blondie ever since.

Maybe being broken was actually what I needed. #brawtimes
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    Graham Kelly
    Ultra Adventure Runner

    A proud, bearded Scotsman whose passion is being tucked up in the mountains and wild places on this wee planet.

    Between completing a round of the Munro and Corbett mountain summits in his native Scotland, he qualified as a Mountain Leader in an attempt to balance his day job as a Project Engineer.
    A regular fell runner, he has branched out into ultra-running, having completed the Marathon des Sables in Morocco, the North Face 100km in the Australian Blue Mountains, the Ultra Marathon Caballo Blanco in the Mexican Copper Canyons (aye, the one in the book), as well as Ultra and Trail Races in the USA and Canada.


    He can occasionally be seen kilt’d up at a ceilidh – an auld Scottish term used to describe the art of whisky drinking until you can waltz perfectly in time.
    Sporadic tales can be found at:

    www.gckelly.blogspot.com

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